..relapse..

I hate it when i cant sleep at night...my mind starts racin'...and it cant seem to stop. I have this habit of not havin' a habit of deleting old msgs (highest record: nearly hittin' 3000)...and hence once i browse my inbox..old and new memories came floodin' back to me..even a simple word could trigger such a tremendous emotional stir in me. there're images and flashbacks of the people whom have came and went..some stays..and also the places that i have been to...things that i have experienced..and learnt...mostly importantly..mistakes which i have made and the things that i could have done at a given time to salvage them....but no matter wat..wat's passed is past..

i believe movin' on doesn't mean forgettin'...i tell myself not to look back on the past..not to change wat has been done..for there is no answers to that..as u can never turn back time. all u have to do is to look forward..and progress. i am not sayin that the past is not worth rememberin'..in fact..there have been lots of wonderful things which i can never forget as well as all the glorious times that i am privileged to enjoy.

it is not simple to pretend that i've forgotten everythin'..so i wont bother tryin'...



With love..


Sleepless Kat