My Miserable Reoccurring Misfortunes

Lost n found:

1. Dark Navy blue Striped-sleeve jacket. ( First Pic Left: on the seat of one of the chairs)

If anyone has seen this jacket..ok whoever will read this blog. If u know where it is pls tell me. I beg you.  T_T

2. Brown bikini top. (Second pic on myself)

Sorry darlings, I lost half of this set of bikini. Buy me another set? And to the person who stole it: I feel sorry for you, whoever you are, guy or girl, you have sinned. Back in the ancient times, if you get caught stealing, your hands are supposed to be chopped off. Never steal what does not belong to you. Earn it, with your own hands!!! Return me my beautiful bras too!! I suspect it is all YOU!!

3. Cute Cup with dog print and spoon. (First pic on the table)

Ok this baby is not with me yet. I am a bad owner as I have left it in the lurch for too long. I am coming for you soon!

Thanks Shicong for sending me these pics. Painful reminders though. And thanks for having the heart to say that I still look nice when I couldn't look more sick and exhausted than I was in the second pic. (The lump of tissue is the proof) 

When can things stop going missing? I hate this feeling. I treasure everything that I have. Throwing stuff away is the most painful and difficult decision that I have to make during spring cleanings. Yeah. I just get emotionally attached to things easily. 

Kat.

Another Me

I loathe superficiality. 

But still I fell into this trap easily. Sometimes its tiring to be that person that you are not. Merely 2 hours at the gym is a test of mental strength and character. I was bombarded by people. Everyone asks and talks about the same things. I repeated the same answers over and over, only hoping to be left alone. 

It's sad, when I realised that I am no longer the naive little girl that I was, who was so flustered when someone asked for my number. Now I am weathered and cold inside (trust me, intrinsically I am full of love), though I could use a little sweetness and politeness to put up as a front. Being able to easily see through people is a sickening skill to acquire.

I yearn for that something to release me. From my own walls which I built up. I am afraid to fell into the pitfalls of adulthood where all u could think about is materialistic desires and possessions. MJ's death remind me painfully of how someone can still stay true their inner child and be who they really are despite what the rest of the world is against or has disposed of that ideal. I am not saying we should all dispense our money and start playing hide and seek because, unfortunately, society does not function in such empirical and simplistic way. 

All that said..what is exactly an appropriate definition for simplicity?  What is simple between people? Between lovers? Between friends? How ironic it is that we always yearned for something simple and yet it is always us who complicate things? And what lies beneath that calm and composed surface of people that you meet every day? I am extremely curious. 

I pray that I am not asking too much from the person that I will need. ok.. I need someone whom I can converse with on an intellectual level; someone whom I can laugh, cry and play with; Someone who listens to his inner child; Someone who is able to see the world in my eyes; someone who loves unconditionally. 

Maybe the last one is too trying to achieve. Even myself is not up to it. But we should never stop hoping and dreaming. I am saying all these is not because I am advertising for a boyfriend, but I realised the need to have a little idea of what I really want so when I am presented with one I would not miss it. And yes, I was reminded twice yesterday that I DO NOT have a boyfriend. Finally, if you think all that I've said is vague and non-essential then maybe you haven't get the point. 

Embrace the child that we are...

I hope I find you,

Kat.

Testing 2..

testing..

yeah..finally

Have You Seen My Childhood

This song made me cry so hard.


"Before you judge me, try hard to love me."

Your Life

Sometimes I hope you don't have to go through all these. I do not want to see you get hurt and I have no rights to do or say anything to prevent that.

But this is life. You get yourself into shit and suffer, for the ones you love. You want to see everything, but sometimes you can be so blinded. You want to be someone for that person but in the process you forget that it is you that he fell for.

This is Frustrating..

I dont know what happened...but this is definitely dampening my mood right now. I have been experiencing problems with uploading pics into this place.


Somehow it still refuses.....



Hope this wont take long, before my patience drains out. I have been considering shutting it down recently. I might see this as the green light to go ahead.


Let's wait and see..