Ideological Trajectories of the Nonsensical Realm of Figure-it-all-out-yourself

Exams over but work keeps coming..and my attention span is diminishing..
When can I start my own projects?
When can we stop and smell the flowers?

Occasionally making yourself useful feels really good. Even though that means I have to end up so so exhausted up to the point of physical collapse. This then bring me to another point. Why are different groups of people or individuals in a class who met every Tuesday afternoon for 3 hours never ever talk or interact with each other? And why did the last class suddenly made all the difference?

The answer is teamwork. When we work together, we are able to interact, bond and understand each others' thoughts and differences. And it's most interesting and engaging talking to different kinds of people. You never know what you gonna learn from them. Just like reading a book, but in a different medium, or maybe like watching a movie that explores the intimate stories of a fictional or real character.

Then totally digressing..another conversation which came up previously had stirred some unrest in my mind. What would happen if Junior College did not happen? Not as in I could not have one but I do not want? Would it turn out better if I were to go on a different path and instead of mugging 2 years of my life away on science? Generally it would give u a better head start and competitive edge which really makes all the difference. However, I would not say it's a waste. After all, the mugging and slogging did gave me some beautiful memories- the friendship, mentorship and all the other nonsenses. Even skipping and swapping lectures or sleeping in lectures seems so fun and bold now. Of course the first and last 3 months of my JC life were most remarkable, both decidedly shaped who I am today.

So we all make choices and are responsible for our choices. Hence I would like to call it 'moving forward' as it is never worth the time to regret upon made and tried decisions. That said, I had to be reminded that by saying to be somebody is very different from being one. I have so much to make up for it and so much to do for myself.


Once again,
school really rocks..

I mean it..
despite some hiccups here and there.

With Luv,
MeerKat